For When You Don’t Feel Like Showing Up

There are days where you will not feel like showing up.

Not only do you not feel like showing up as your best self, but you don’t even feel like showing up at all.

I think we’re allowed to have days where we can’t recognize how we got through from sunrise to sunset. I think it’s perfectly valid that there will be days where you cannot remember how to get out of bed.

I talk a lot about cultivating wholeness, but what is feeling whole if that doesn’t also include feeling the yucky stuff. Your wholeness is not whole until it also includes you being pissed off, judgy, cranky, and unmotivated. I find myself trying so hard to dwell in the joyful moments and see so much resistance so allowing myself to be just sad sometimes. I love using my tools, but I believe we should allow ourselves to feel the emotions that come up without spiritual lessoning them away. I am so guilty of this. It’s caused me to stay in relationships, jobs, and situations that were not honoring me in order to prove that I could tolerate whatever situation it was.

It’s true that we need to be able to handle our triggers and work though the lessons we’re here to learn.

But the biggest lesson to learn is when you are choosing to stay in a situation that is not for you out of comfort and fear of the unknown instead of honoring yourself and choosing something different.

I don’t mean to make this sound simple. It’s not and there are so many situations that we are not able to just leave instantly like that.

But overall, I want us to think about what we are choosing by not changing. What we reinforce to ourselves every morning when we wake up and at night before we sleep. Who you tell yourself you are is who you become. Be mindful of this when you find yourself repeating limiting stories to yourself about what is and is not in your control.

We are called to do our best with what we’ve got. But friends, we’ve got a whole lot more than we like to believe sometimes, and my prayer for us all is to tune into what is for us so that we can leave behind all that is not.

May this rain continue to wash away all that cannot stay.

Thank you for being here. I love you.

All my Love,

Lena