The Cosmic Giggle

I find myself taking life too seriously.

I find myself worried, fearful, and full of doubt.

I spend most of my time doing “the work”, seeking ways of increasing my vibration and expanding my consciousness as I feel I’m called to do in this lifetime.

But I’m embarrassed to share that despite all of the wisdom I seek to absorb and share, I still end up lost in my own drama.

Wrapped up in “what is” and “buts” instead of embracing the fact that the unfolding is part of my curriculum here.

Beware of anyone who claims to have it all figured out.

Beware of anyone who says that their way is the only way.

This article isn’t coming out like I want it to because I’m sitting here feeling sorry for myself and wallowing in self-created-pity over events that are out of my control and are part of divine timing that I’m not yet meant to see.

It’s part of the secret. The things that are not being revealed to me yet- not out of malicious intent, but because I’m just not meant to read that chapter yet. I want to skip ahead a few pages just to make sure this book is worth the read, but it doesn’t exactly work like that.

Some chapters are not going to be as exciting and adventure filled as others.

But how can you build a well-rounded novel when you leave out the foundation? When you don’t bother to include depth in the main character and a story arc that makes you actually want to root for this person?

I’m in a chapter of waiting. Decembers are almost always like this for me. A season that is supposed to be joyful ends up leading me to hold on for dear life because I’m so fearful of what is to come.

I let myself feel stuck, I let myself feel frozen and I allow myself to embrace the numbing agents that come with this 3D reality because I’m scared of trusting fully in something I can’t see; while casting imaginary investments into an account I’m worried I won’t be able to withdraw from someday.

The thing is, it’s never worked out like that. My investments in my faith have always paid off. I don’t have to worry, but for whatever reason, I sometimes will anyway.

So I’ll embrace the cosmic giggle of watching the drama unfold and knowing that I can be so deeply “in it” while still being separate from it all the time.

Grateful to witness the process that is my life on Earth, and I invite you to join me in taking it all a little less seriously.

With all my love,

Lena